Dear God.
My old boss was in town last night. Haven't seen him in months. Of course he's a smoker. Of course we go out for dinner and drinks and a few more drinks. I was worried about this one. Especially so close to quitting. Of course I had a couple smokes with my boss. Of course I felt awful about it later on. I do love this medicine though. I felt nothing from the cigarettes, and actually, they tasted bad to me.
So it sucks, and here I am AGAIN, restarting. My carbon monoxide level must be up again in my blood!
What did I learn? I'm not having any alcoholic beverages for at least a couple weeks. Maybe a month. Not a big deal, I'm not the kind of guy that needs to drink everyday, or even every week for that matter.
The guilt trip I'm sending myself on is worse than the smoking! It's ridiculous that I keep going back to the old habit. I don't even want one. The cravings are flat out, not there. I'll step it up this weekend. Spending it with the family at the cottage, so watching my two kids run around will certainly make me not want to smoke.
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I once was quit for well over a year, alcohol was involved, and I became a smoker again. It seems to have that effect. I will get to the point where I can enjoy a drink without a smoke, but for myself it will be awhile.
Anyway, what counts is what you do from here, and you still sound committed to quitting, so back on track you go.
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